Current mood:

cheerful

It's been a very long time since I've written here, partly because I don't have much access to the internet, partly because I've been too wrapped up in MySpace, partly because for a long time coming here reminded me of a part of my life I didn't really want to remember. Now here I am updating this journal. Partly because I have gained somewhat good access to the internet, partly because I got so attached to my MySpace that I now can't really update it without fear that I'll get someone pissed off for my being too honest, and partly because that part of my life I want to forget doesn't ever seem to leave me alone anymore.

Plus I'm trying to turn my life around. I've been pff of heroin for 25 days now and unlike the other times when I quit I really want to stay clean this time. Before I wanted to want to get clean but deep in my heart I knew it wasn't time. I was still having too much fun. Now that no longer rings true. I can say truthfully now that I don't want to use anymore. I like being able to say that.

I still won't be updating everyday I don't have access to the internet every day but about once a week you'll hear from me :o)